someone to take care of you

it was there

in that single moment

when i knew

this is what you wanted

this is what you thought you deserved

from the way your unkempt hair styled itself

to the way you chose to style yourself

you don't belong here

you don't belong this way

but i'm certain that's all you've ever heard in regards to you

and i know

i know what you're doing

even if you don't

and you know it too

even though you try and block it out

or make it some fanciful fallacy

fit for feverish function

the look on your face was one of disbelief

he wasn't even there to you

you were all alone

as the smoke billowed on a harsh wind

i doubt you smelled

what i assume was

the aromatic flesh roasting and marinating in it's own fat

broad daylight

did you think i would never happen upon you

were you hoping

it was chance

it was only for an instant

and in that instant i fell apart inside

i wanted to stop

wanted to go back

wanted to take you away from this hell you've created

show you

again

how it can be

if you let it

but in that instant

i made up my mind

i took it with me

up the road a little ways

then 

i left it

experience is for the wise

redundancy is for the insane

i know what chapter you're reading

don't drain all your resources