don't look back

when you look back

you will see pure

unadulterated

perfect reality

that you tortured for years

while you ran and hid

in the unfortunate bliss

of your miserable happiness

how wonderful

a kiss from your lips would light my soul on fire

to be held in your arms

safe from harm

would empower my being

i would thank the sun that rose every day 

and the moon every night 

for they brought us together

no amount of outside winds will shift the way i feel

no self doubt

no fear

no loathing

my smile glistens when you cross my mind

the commitment to my passion 

for you inspires my desires to be there for you when you need my energy

when i sleep i can feel your essence melting into my skin

there is excitement

there is hope

there is a new chapter

a few pages in

that will be dictated by our actions

how wonderful 

new

and in the dark

as i start to fade out

i smile because i know he loves me

would do anything for me

is a man of his word even if he gets distracted

this man with a dream of a certain foreseeable future is learning

with much determination

what it takes to make dreams reality

though observant i open my heart and let love in

we can evolve together and still stay true to our individual aesthetics

he sends emotions of sunflowers over me when i hear his voice

see his face

read his words

it makes my body melt when i think about getting lost in his eyes

i don't expect that which was never there to begin with

i can love and i will show him my beauty

towards his light i float

i don't want this feeling of being wanted to end

when our lips meet and our bodies touch our souls will know what the truth is 

hidden

I miss the way you randomly approach me

The things you would say

I miss the feeling you gave me

I hope it wasn't in vain

Life began and we counted the days

Together

Wishful thinking in the back of our minds of a life

Together

And yet there's something

Something not there

The extra mile is not being met

Nor exceeded

And I can't help but feeling

That you're not feeling

This

Kiss me so I know it's real

Feel me from the inside

Let me in to your room so I can understand

And respect

And appreciate

You

Where do I stand

Where do you stand

Where do we

Stand

Show me it's better than sex

Make me believe

What you believe

What do you believe

There is someone

Always someone

Only one

Of whom you should never hide from

Me

I do not wear it well

And I care

And I feel

And I love

appreciation

oh to enjoy your beauty and taste your skin as you hold me in your arms 

your delicious scent filling my nostrils

my lips on your soft neck would be a blessing 

your hands on my lower body would be divine

holding each other close would be our forte