A poem for a friend

Dear friend

I thought of you today

I've seen your reflection in my mind's eye in many situations this week

I felt a guiding force and I allowed myself to accept the cause

No matter the effect

It wasn't easy

Whenever I allowed doubt to wander in

I heard your whisper

I knew to be strong and steadfast

At one point I let my emotions get the better of me

Be exposed shall we say

It felt good

For once

I had to keep control 

But I acknowledged what it felt like to see myself from behind

To watch a moment of enlightenment manifest

There was beauty in the pain

There always is

I'm determined to let love in

I believe in the journey

Short and sweet

I miss the cuddling and hand holding 

I miss the way your energy felt against mine 

I miss the times when we would get lost in each other's souls 

Captivated by the beauty of each other's eyes 

Entranced by our skin 

Melting 

Into one 

Being 

Your fingertips dancing 

Deliciously 

On my lips 

A time for warmth is upon us

The heat from your intentions 

I still remember 

Concentration exercise

It happens eventually 

Though not as severe each time 

Kerosene kisses leave stains of disappointment 

But 

We are 

After all 

Human 

So spare me your Devils advocate spiel 

I promise I don't care 

To get stuck in a rut is embarrassing the first time 

So when the forty seventh time happens 

A decision must be made 

But each time 

It's less severe 

And I thought I had everything under control 

Yet mine is not to control 

A diversion from the future to revisit the past 

Each one 

Teach one 

Permit the mind to flourish 

We can't get enough of this fragrance 

Allow the timestamps to be 

Commit yourself to circumstantial objectivity 

Watch as the weak melt and dissolve by the catalyst that is defamation 

But first 

Rise