What I think

The infinite space gave way to trepidation 

I couldn't describe my feelings 

In lieu of validation

I lacked the affirmation

That solitude 

Wouldn't 

Become me 

Alarmed by the state

Forgiving of my reaction

Intrinsically 

Set to the edge

Comically speaking

We are the majority

And we

Will not

Be silenced

There is no failure in continuous learning

A bone with no marrow at all

This is my life

And I choose to live it

Don't misunderstand the stain

As compelling as dinner is

In the company of low ballers

Fluidity reminds me to practice what I preach 

Turning my knowledge to wisdom 

inner fire/inner peace

I brought myself back

From condolence and apathy

From tear drop and circumstance 

I almost forgot

Again

But I won't let you deceive me again

This time

You have your job to do

To live this life

Within the order and natural laws

To the fullest

Really taste

See with your third eye

Touch with your heart

These are the keys to life

To success

Once these spells leave your lips your intentions are manifested 

Be honest with yourself 

And with me

Because we both know you better than you think you know yourself 

Turbulent dissections 

Pity

Robust vocalizing of a solution 

Sans plan

I can only tell you of the light

You must seek it for yourself

You will know what the world is when you see who you are

A poem for a friend

Dear friend

I thought of you today

I've seen your reflection in my mind's eye in many situations this week

I felt a guiding force and I allowed myself to accept the cause

No matter the effect

It wasn't easy

Whenever I allowed doubt to wander in

I heard your whisper

I knew to be strong and steadfast

At one point I let my emotions get the better of me

Be exposed shall we say

It felt good

For once

I had to keep control 

But I acknowledged what it felt like to see myself from behind

To watch a moment of enlightenment manifest

There was beauty in the pain

There always is

I'm determined to let love in

I believe in the journey

Short and sweet

I miss the cuddling and hand holding 

I miss the way your energy felt against mine 

I miss the times when we would get lost in each other's souls 

Captivated by the beauty of each other's eyes 

Entranced by our skin 

Melting 

Into one 

Being 

Your fingertips dancing 

Deliciously 

On my lips 

A time for warmth is upon us

The heat from your intentions 

I still remember 

Concentration exercise

It happens eventually 

Though not as severe each time 

Kerosene kisses leave stains of disappointment 

But 

We are 

After all 

Human 

So spare me your Devils advocate spiel 

I promise I don't care 

To get stuck in a rut is embarrassing the first time 

So when the forty seventh time happens 

A decision must be made 

But each time 

It's less severe 

And I thought I had everything under control 

Yet mine is not to control 

A diversion from the future to revisit the past 

Each one 

Teach one 

Permit the mind to flourish 

We can't get enough of this fragrance 

Allow the timestamps to be 

Commit yourself to circumstantial objectivity 

Watch as the weak melt and dissolve by the catalyst that is defamation 

But first 

Rise

Wrestling With Myself

What I thought was shallow 

Became deep 

What I thought I wanted 

I was grateful for its passing 

In a concentration camp of confusion and alienation 

What should've been simple 

Gripped me in its frozen talons

A feeling I don't desire to entertain any time soon 

Tell me how you grace the bottom 

It's fascinating to watch 

I'm here to play a part 

Endorse me 

Ongoing deliberation lingers like chalk dust 

From a black board 

Unable to settle 

My hesitation becomes my greatest attribute 

Lust

Fully and completely 

Blanketed by aggression 

Exacerbating my predilection for desire 

How righteous it all seemed 

How honest 

How devout we once were

How we've discovered ourselves 

I could reach out 

Again 

But that would bear insanity 

The border of heart and mind 

Felt at the exact moment 

There is only one chance 

Allow me to stimulate myself 

Bring about change 

Within me 

So changes us all 

someone to take care of you

it was there

in that single moment

when i knew

this is what you wanted

this is what you thought you deserved

from the way your unkempt hair styled itself

to the way you chose to style yourself

you don't belong here

you don't belong this way

but i'm certain that's all you've ever heard in regards to you

and i know

i know what you're doing

even if you don't

and you know it too

even though you try and block it out

or make it some fanciful fallacy

fit for feverish function

the look on your face was one of disbelief

he wasn't even there to you

you were all alone

as the smoke billowed on a harsh wind

i doubt you smelled

what i assume was

the aromatic flesh roasting and marinating in it's own fat

broad daylight

did you think i would never happen upon you

were you hoping

it was chance

it was only for an instant

and in that instant i fell apart inside

i wanted to stop

wanted to go back

wanted to take you away from this hell you've created

show you

again

how it can be

if you let it

but in that instant

i made up my mind

i took it with me

up the road a little ways

then 

i left it

experience is for the wise

redundancy is for the insane

i know what chapter you're reading

don't drain all your resources