Chunky

I’m fortunate to know life before the internet

Where words like vintage, retro, and classic have sentiment

I’m fortunate to know life after its creation

Where new school becomes old school

There’s so much inspiration

I’m fortunate the wars I’ve seen aren’t like the past

Even though I’m pretty sure I still grew up to fast

Our fear of one another ain’t as strong as it once was

More of us can be ourselves and encourage everyone

With one foot in the matrix and the other on the earth

I open my arms wide to accept the universe

I’m fortunate to know life in all the ways I do

This bond of oneness then increases between me and you

Intravenous expressions

Intravenous expressions of you

Plague me to my core

What reminds me to

Detach

Is my

Desire

To let things evolve

But I keep wondering

Are you seeing 

Someone

Are we ready for this

Mature

For this

What

Is

This

I run my fingers through my hair which I wish was yours

I allow myself to be encapsulated

Do I

By your iridescent eyes

Light

All I really wish to have one day is the strength to say

To you

I

Love you

Reliable

Does it make you happy that I’m not around

That I just faded into the abyss

Do you even notice I’m gone

Left you to it while I tried

Kept trying

Then tried some more

Do you think I’m foolish for trying

For loving you

I accept my insecurities 

And work to better myself

What about you

Where are you

Still in the same place

Same space

Same frame of mind

Everyone else has a problem 

And it’s not you

Yet I was there for you

When you needed someone

Your angel

Your light

Yes I understand

Yes that makes sense

No

I just wanna be friends

I’m not looking for a relationship

Right now

Games

Round and round

Being honest and vulnerable scares you

But

That’s home to me

I’m not sorry

Not sad

No judgement or regret

I’m grateful you allowed me to love you

For that moment

For what it’s worth

A Love Like That

What I want is to be wanted

Needed

Desired

Enjoyed

Savored by someone who wants to find balance and harmony

Someone who wants to grow

My number one fan

Someone who welcomes me 

With strong warm arms

When we fuck

We take each other to ecstasy

There will never be a reason to question the integrity

Truth

Honesty

I’ll wait for a love like that

Forever means forever

With you

I am the total package 

As I stand here in all my perfection

With all my seeming flaws

And all my insecurities

Hearing the ego but knowing the Self

I’m the legend you one day hoped to find 

But never thought existed

I am everything and more that you ever wanted and ever needed

I can love you the way you want

I can keep you smiling

You can be yourself with me

I see you because I am you

I know you because you are me

Teach me

I want to build with you

Watch you smile in the sunrise

I want to learn how to love you

To see joy in your eyes

I want to discover all the places you’ve kept hidden from others

Because you feel safe with me

Even when you didn’t think you did

Even when you told yourself never again

You let me in

Because you want to

And you know we can grow

Touching

I wasn’t fooled by your insecurity

It seems to be a recurring theme around me

I wasn’t saddened when you pushed me away

Such follies are for the weak

As lost as you were you found my light

And you held it till it burned you

Yet I could do nothing to comfort your wounds

But be

And you returned

Time and again

Each time a little more broken

Finding solace in my light